{"id":163,"date":"2020-01-29T23:34:16","date_gmt":"2020-01-29T21:34:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/?p=163"},"modified":"2020-01-30T00:09:13","modified_gmt":"2020-01-29T22:09:13","slug":"rekapitulace-vseho-mozneho","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/?p=163","title":{"rendered":"Rekapitulace v\u0161eho mo\u017en\u00e9ho"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Nest\u00edh\u00e1m. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nest\u00edh\u00e1m si ps\u00e1t den\u00edk, nest\u00edh\u00e1m si ps\u00e1t web, nest\u00edh\u00e1m…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

St\u00edh\u00e1m v\u016fbec \u017e\u00edt? Jist\u011b\u017ee ano. Je to takov\u00e1 j\u00edzda na horsk\u00e9 dr\u00e1ze, \u017ee mi za j\u00edzdy vypadaly z kapes pen\u00edze, kl\u00ed\u010de, i n\u011bkte\u0159\u00ed zn\u00e1m\u00ed. Jen ti, co se m\u011b dr\u017e\u00ed zuby nehty, proto\u017ee je tahle zb\u011bsil\u00e1 j\u00edzda bav\u00ed, z\u016fstali. Nen\u00ed jich m\u00e1lo. Pat\u0159\u00ed mezi n\u011b i moje b\u00e1je\u010dn\u00e9, kr\u00e1sn\u00e9 a pracovit\u00e9 t\u0159i d\u011bti. Oliver, M\u00e1\u0159\u00ed, Johanka.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00ed p\u0159\u00e1tel\u00e9 jsou ukovan\u00ed z ocele. Lenka, Kamila, Iva, Sim\u010da, \u010cigin, Jaroslav. Ch\u00e1pou m\u011b, pom\u00e1haj\u00ed mi, nevad\u00ed jim, kdy\u017e na dlouh\u00e9 m\u011bs\u00edce zmiz\u00edm, kdy\u017e nepos\u00edl\u00e1m pozdravy a gratulace k narozenin\u00e1m. V\u011bd\u00ed, \u017ee se um\u00edm zjevit jako duch, um\u00edm zavolat uprost\u0159ed noci, um\u00edm se pov\u011bsit kolem krku, ale um\u00edm i naslouchat. Ch\u00e1pu v\u0161echny lidsk\u00e9 pohnutky, i kdy\u017e n\u011bkter\u00e9 nesd\u00edl\u00edm a nechci s nimi m\u00edt nic spole\u010dn\u00e9ho.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bav\u00ed m\u011b d\u011bti! V\u0161eho druhu, i ty zlobiv\u00e9, i ty nesnesiteln\u011b uje\u010den\u00e9, ubre\u010den\u00e9 a vztekl\u00e9. Perou se s \u017eivotem, kter\u00fd jim nep\u0159ipad\u00e1 jako b\u00e1je\u010dn\u00e9 m\u00edsto, ale jako klec. Ch\u00e1pu je. Pou\u0161t\u00edm je do sv\u00e9ho sv\u011bta, do sv\u00e9ho domu, kde se jim l\u00edb\u00ed, c\u00edt\u00ed se tu svobodn\u011b a jako doma.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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obl\u00edben\u00e9 „p\u0159esp\u00e1va\u010dky“ v dom\u011b v M\u011b\u010d\u00edn\u011b<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n
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Z liter\u00e1rn\u00edch d\u00edlen v M\u011b\u010d\u00edn\u011b<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n
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pasov\u00e1n\u00ed prv\u0148\u00e1k\u016f na \u010dten\u00e1\u0159e v Ji\u010d\u00edn\u011b<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Um\u00edm pobavit, pot\u011b\u0161it, pomoct.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Za chv\u00edli mi bude 53 let. 31. ledna m\u00e1m narozeniny. Kdy\u017e jsem byla mal\u00e1, ztr\u00e1cela a rozb\u00edjela v\u011bci, moje maminka m\u011b \u010dasto napom\u00ednala: „Po tob\u011b na sv\u011bt\u011b nic nezbyde!“ <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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j\u00e1 v 1. t\u0159\u00edd\u011b<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

V\u00e1\u017en\u011b jsem se nad t\u00edm zamyslela n\u011bkdy v deseti letech a rozhodla jsem se to napravit. Mus\u00ed po m\u011b zb\u00fdt n\u011bco velk\u00e9ho, d\u016fle\u017eit\u00e9ho a nezapomenuteln\u00e9ho.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Maminka ani t\u00e1ta u\u017e tu d\u00e1vno nejsou, ale j\u00e1 v\u011b\u0159\u00edm, \u017ee vid\u00ed, \u017ee se sna\u017e\u00edm! Je \u010das na rekapitulaci? Jist\u011b ano.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Stala jsem se matkou<\/strong>. M\u00e1m t\u0159i dosp\u011bl\u00e9 schopn\u00e9 pracovit\u00e9 d\u011bti. \u0160ikovn\u00e9ho vtipn\u00e9ho syna a dv\u011b p\u016fvabn\u00e9 dcery. Jsem \u017eivouc\u00ed d\u016fkaz, \u017ee lesbi\u010dka m\u016f\u017ee m\u00edt a dok\u00e1\u017ee spr\u00e1vn\u011b vychovat potomka. V\u0161ichni homofobi by m\u011bli v\u011bd\u011bt, \u017ee homosexualitou se ned\u00e1 nakazit, ani se ned\u011bd\u00ed. L\u00e1ska ke stejn\u00e9mu pohlav\u00ed je mo\u017en\u00e1 nenorm\u00e1ln\u00ed, ale nen\u00ed nemocn\u00e1! D\u011btem vlastn\u00edm chci v\u011bnovat vlastn\u00ed rubriku. Zaslou\u017e\u00ed si to! Stala jsem se spisovatelkou<\/strong>. Dost\u00e1v\u00e1m mil\u00e9 dopisy od \u010dten\u00e1\u0159\u016f, zvou m\u011b na autorsk\u00e1 \u010dten\u00ed \u0161koly i knihovny, a co je nejzaj\u00edmav\u011bj\u0161\u00ed, psan\u00ed m\u011b \u017eiv\u00ed. T\u00edmto hl\u00e1s\u00edm ve\u0159ejn\u011b do \u00e9teru, \u017ee nen\u00ed pravda, \u017ee by se \u010desk\u00fd spisovatel, spisovatelka, nemohli \u017eivit pouze vlastn\u00ed tvorbou. A m\u00ed nakladatel\u00e9 m\u011b hodnot\u00ed tak, \u017ee jsem schopn\u00e1 platit vysok\u00e9 spl\u00e1tky hypote\u010dn\u00edho \u00fav\u011bru. Ach. M\u00e9dia \u010dasto l\u017eou, to v\u00ed v duchu ka\u017ed\u00fd, a kdo ne, nechce tuhle pravdu zn\u00e1t, proto\u017ee ho bav\u00ed skand\u00e1ly a senzace v\u0161eho druhu, hlavn\u011b kdy\u017e se t\u00fdkaj\u00ed n\u011bkoho jin\u00e9ho.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Splnila jsem si p\u0159\u00e1n\u00ed a v roce 2012 jsem zakoupila obrovsk\u00fd zdevastovan\u00fd, ale kr\u00e1sn\u00fd d\u016fm, kter\u00fd se mi da\u0159\u00ed rekonstruovat. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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d\u016fm v M\u011b\u010d\u00edn\u011b, na prodej, rok 2012<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n
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D\u016fm dnes, leden 2020 – chyb\u00ed rekonstrukce erbu, port\u00e1l a sokl. Dokon\u010d\u00edme na ja\u0159e 2020.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Je slo\u017eit\u00e9 vysv\u011btlit, \u017ee nem\u00e1m pocit, \u017ee by d\u016fm byl jenom m\u016fj. Pat\u0159\u00ed d\u011btem, kter\u00e9 ke mn\u011b chod\u00ed hr\u00e1t divadlo, hr\u00e1t si nebo poslouchat \u010dten\u00ed a vypr\u00e1v\u011bn\u00ed. Kdy\u017e se d\u00edv\u00e1m na fotky n\u011bkolik let star\u00e9, ani se mi nechce v\u011b\u0159it, v jak zoufal\u00e9m byl stavu. Ale vst\u00e1v\u00e1 z popela, opra\u0161uje k\u0159\u00eddla a za dva t\u0159i roky vzl\u00e9tneme spole\u010dn\u011b do nebes. V roce 2019 dostal nov\u00fd kab\u00e1t. Fas\u00e1da je n\u00e1dhern\u00e1, i kdy\u017e n\u00e1m dala nesm\u00edrn\u011b zabrat. T\u011bch dvacet tun suti, kter\u00e9 jsme museli vlastnoru\u010dn\u011b z domu okopat, odnosit do kontejneru a odv\u00e9zt na skl\u00e1dku, bylo sm\u00e1\u010den\u00e9 potem a slzami. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Konec srpna 2019. <\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

V dom\u011b se budou konat autorsk\u00e1 \u010dten\u00ed, liter\u00e1rn\u00ed d\u00edlny, \u0161koly v p\u0159\u00edrod\u011b a kulturn\u00ed komorn\u00ed akce v\u0161eho druhu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ka\u017ed\u00fdm rokem nap\u00ed\u0161u knihu, n\u011bkdy i dv\u011b. Tvo\u0159\u00edm v chaosu, po v\u011bt\u00e1ch, od psan\u00ed odb\u00edh\u00e1m, za\u0159izuju milion v\u011bc\u00ed, proj\u00ed\u017ed\u00edm republiku, ale do sv\u00e9ho notebooku za hrdiny m\u00fdch kn\u00ed\u017eek v\u017edy zasko\u010d\u00edm, postr\u010d\u00edm je, posunu d\u011bj. P\u0159\u00edb\u011bh prom\u00fd\u0161l\u00edm docela dlouho, proto ho m\u00e1m v hlav\u011b dob\u0159e zpracovan\u00fd, a kdy\u017e p\u00ed\u0161u, jen se zamysl\u00edm a v duchu se pod\u00edv\u00e1m, jak to je d\u00e1l… Nep\u0159enosn\u00e1 informace, j\u00e1 v\u00edm. Neum\u00edm ps\u00e1t v klidu, v tichu, Vym\u00fd\u0161let si m\u011b bav\u00ed odmali\u010dka. Zav\u0159u o\u010di a nech\u00e1m postavy \u017e\u00edt vlastn\u00edm \u017eivotem. Jen poslouch\u00e1m, co si pov\u00eddaj\u00ed, jdu za nimi krok za krokem a bedliv\u011b sleduju d\u011bj, abych ho mohla vypr\u00e1v\u011bt….<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Na konci roku 2019 se mi poda\u0159ilo bleskurychle sepsat p\u0159\u00edb\u011bh, kter\u00fd mi dlouho prob\u00edhal hlavou. Kniha Eda se ned\u00e1<\/strong> spat\u0159\u00ed sv\u011btlo sv\u011bta v kv\u011btnu roku 2020. Jednou nohou jsem v poklidn\u00e9 obci, kde stoj\u00ed \u010das jak voda v rybn\u00edku, <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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se sousedem Frantou na n\u00e1vsi, z\u00e1\u0159\u00ed 2019<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

druhou na cest\u00e1ch za \u010dten\u00e1\u0159i. Mezit\u00edm b\u00fdv\u00e1m v Praze, v miniaturn\u00edm pokoj\u00edku ve \u0160kolsk\u00e9 ulici, nedaleko V\u00e1clav\u00e1ku, kde m\u00e1m z\u00e1bavn\u00e9 z\u00e1zem\u00ed. Postel a knihy. Ale nev\u011b\u0159ili byste, kolik lid\u00ed se do takov\u00e9ho mal\u00e9ho prostoru vejde a jak\u00e1 je pak legrace….<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bav\u00ed m\u011b \u017e\u00edt a sledovat ten mumraj, tu velkolepou show! Vive la vie!<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Nest\u00edh\u00e1m.  Nest\u00edh\u00e1m si ps\u00e1t den\u00edk, nest\u00edh\u00e1m si ps\u00e1t web, nest\u00edh\u00e1m… St\u00edh\u00e1m v\u016fbec \u017e\u00edt? Jist\u011b\u017ee ano. Je to takov\u00e1 j\u00edzda na horsk\u00e9 dr\u00e1ze, \u017ee mi...<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":175,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[],"tags":[7,5,6],"class_list":["post-163","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","tag-braunova-petra","tag-mecin","tag-stara-skola"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/telc.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/163","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=163"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/163\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":176,"href":"https:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/163\/revisions\/176"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/175"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=163"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=163"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.petrabraunova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=163"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}